Friday, October 23, 2009
Claude McKay and My Soul on Ice
So today was a brilliant day. I woke up in a great mood and felt ready to go out and play. The night before I suffered from a bout of insomnia. I've had battles with insomnia since I was a kid. No joke...from the age of about 12, my mind would become completely wired and sleep became a dream.
Last night I was foolish enough to watch the local news. And it happened again. Yet another report of a child being murdered on the way to school. He was only 17, shot and killed. Just like that.
It's easy to feel isolated when you're living downtown and from 50 stories up, the city looks so peaceful, so beautiful. The illumination from the street lights alone make me feel like a tiny character from Tron. Oh for fucks sake, google it.
Oh I'm just messing with you. After effing around on Ebay fake shopping, I couldn't get the story out of my head. Why would anyone kill a child? Why did they beat Derrion Albert to death? Why did those boys in Florida douse their classmate with alcohol, then set a blaze to him? Why did a 16 year old girl lose her eye after being attack by a mob of 20?
When I was a shorty? If you had beef, you had a round of "Yo mama so fat jokes" and called it a fucking day. Yah sometimes we squabbled, push shove...but never beating each other into a pulp.
At times like this I pray for clarity and peace. And then I put myself on punishment for watching the local news. I had a friend say to me today "Oh I don't even bother with the news...it's too sad." I understand that. But, can I really continue to turn a blind eye to this bullshit? My world cannot only be skipping off to Barney's, drinking scotch, doing theatre, and day dreaming about what I want to be when I grow up.
Oh look an advertisement for the film 2012 has just come on the goof tube. Really? I'm supposed to be afraid that the world will end in 2012? Judas Priest man...
Well, I've just popped a melatonin. Lets hope insomnia doesn't seduce me again tonight.